Journey to my Spirit Animal




Here’s my journey ~

It’s dark as I begin this journey into the forest. There is no light around me other than what I can see at my feet..the ground. Just pure dirt and rocks.  As I begin walking down this dark path, light floods all around me.  I feel as though I am stepping out of this darkness and into pure light, joy and happiness.  This forest is beautiful.  The ground covered in green soft moss, everywhere. It feels so good on my bare’s comfy and supportive.  I feel safe and comfortable. I’m surrounded by so many birch trees right around me, and farther up the trail are these ginormous thick tall massive trees. These trees are strong and their roots just come right up above the ground off the trail.

The path is lined with ferns and other thick green bushes.  I suddenly hear a little rustle in the bush just as I started to pay attention to them.  I don’t feel threatened by this noise, I am more curious and eager to know what it was. I take another step, and a thick bushy reddish-orange tail with a white tip pops up out of the bush.  I take another step…then this beautiful majestic fox hops out. We lock eyes. We don’t speak to one another, but look into each others eyes. Then off we go, continuing down the mossy trail.  This fox is playful, hopping and running from side to side. I begin to do the same things…I am hopping, galloping and running along, having so much fun and feeling so free.

As we are getting deeper into the forest, I get a sense we’re not alone. I look up in the trees and there it is…a white owl starting at me.  I lock eyes with this mysterious wise soul for what felt like a minute, as we both looked away, the owl came swooping down right in front of the fox and I, and flew off into the forest.

The fox and I continue along still playing around and end up at this beautiful field. It is covered with tall grass and orange and yellow flowers. They are everywhere. I am galloping and hopping through these beautiful wildflowers with the fox. Playing and having so much fun just being within the flowers.

Suddenly, it is time to head back to the trail head. The fox and I are just walking side by side. In silence. I can’t help my smile and look all around me, taking in all the beautiful surroundings. We get all the way to where the moss is ending and the darkness is beginning. I look back at the fox, she smiles at me, I smile back. She hops right into the bush she came from. I walk back into the darkness.

This time, I felt okay being back in the dark. I know where I am,
and I trust where I am going.


– from the wildflower within

This journey was guided through an animal totem meditation by Melissa Pressmar.  She is a yoga teacher, Reiki master, aromatherapist and many other wonderful things. So thankful to have been a part of such a magical experience.

You can learn more about Melissa @

Zip ~ Daily Prompt

the wind zips all around me,
as i reach the top of this mountain
i feel overwhelmingly free
and my heartbeat is pounding.

it’s telling me what i already know,
that i belong among the never-ending hills
where the air is fresh
& gives me chills.

via Daily Prompt: Zip

Journey to Self Love – Day 5

Today wasn’t that bad of a day..honestly, it just had it’s moments. I woke up about 15 minutes earlier than normally, so that was my first switch up of the day. I did my typical morning routine and right before I took a shower, I decided to work out for 10 minutes. Subconsciously I knew it was Day 5 of the Challenge and that meant switch up the routine, but at 5:50 in the morning I’m not thinking about that, I am just trying to get my slipper socks on deal with the bright bathroom light I’m about to turn on that’s going to wake me right up. But once I did the workout, I felt so energized. I’m glad I listened to my body this morning.

Throughout my work day was the most stressful of it all. My day is extremely exhausted. I would’ve typically let that take over the way the rest of my night would go. I definitely was cranky when I first got home, short with my fiancé’. I took some deep breaths and told myself to relax, I’m home, I can make the most of the rest of the day. And thats what I did. We made some dinner together and got ready to meet my mom to go hiking. We ended up going to my favorite place around us.

Typically we do the same walk around the whole park, but this time was different. As we walked up the road near this beautiful historical house and fields surrounding us, my mom says lets switch it up and keep walking down the road. (We’ve never walked down it before.) My fiancé and I are always up for new adventures so of course we went that way. When we got down to the bottom of the hill it loops around to another trail. As we started walking up it my mom spots an owl. We just stood there and watched this magical creature. A crow came swooping in as the annoying birds they are and he flew away, but up the trail we were following. As we were walking we kept search the tops of trees and spotted him again. As the crows came down again, he flew across the trail to the other side. Stood there a few moments trying to search for him, spotted him and watched him for a few more minutes. Owls are amazing. I am so happy we went that way, otherwise we would’ve missed out on that experience.

Sometimes you just gotta switch up what feels comfortable to you. You never know what you could experience if you just take a leap of faith and do what feels right in your soul. ❤

Day 5: Switch it up 

  • Tired of the same old daily routine? Switch it up, wake up at a different time. Take a different way to work.

Journey to Self Love – Day 4 

Today’s task for the Journey to Self Love Challenge- was to create a vision board. A vision board is basically a space that you create using words, pictures, quotes, etc that you will see often that will help motivate you with whatever you’re trying to do.

I got home from work and heated up the rest of my leftovers from Meatless Monday meal (which was so yummy, and the recipe is on the previous blog) and opened up my laptop. I searched Pinterest for pictures and quotes that inspire me. Then I thought about some words I’m trying to work on more. Downloaded some cute new fonts and typed up the words and quotes.

Putting the vision board together was the best part. Made a cup of chamomile tea, grabbed the scissors & tape and got to work. Hung up my Christmas lights in the shape of a rectangle to be my ‘board’. I hung up a feather because I always find feathers in the most unexpected moments when I need a sign. I hung up my dreamcatcher that I received from a treasure box at The Wild Woman Fest in 2016.

During this whole experience, I felt really good about myself. I realized that for the first time, I am actually taking the time out of everyday to do something for me. These tasks that are planned each day gets me so excited for every day to come. I love seeing this board on my side of the bedroom, a place that I go do everyday, so I will be reminded of all the things that inspire me ❤
Day 4: Create a Vision Board 

• Create this in a sacred space where you’ll see it often.

 Don’t just focus on materialistic things you want. Be sure to
include how you want to feel.

 • You can print or write out quotes, words, pictures, etc. 

• Put up different objects that remind you of positive memories
or feelings. (You also can add to this as you go.)

 • Have fun with this!

Journey to Self Love – Day 3

Meatless Monday!

Heres the recipe of the dinner I tried!


Day 3: Meatless Monday

Going meatless once a week (or more!) can help reduce the risk of chronic conditions like cardiovascular disease, diabetes & obesity. 

It gives your gut a break. 

Helps reduce carbon footprint. 

Keep this up through the challenge and beyond. 

Journey to Self Love – Day 2

Day two on this journey, and to be honest I didn’t do as good as I’d hope to do.  Today I was suppose to stay away from the phone- ALL DAY. I began this morning checking Instagram  and Snapchat. No Facebook though…until my grandfather tagged me in a post from brunch- I looked at that quick and quickly got off. Didn’t go near the news feed. I am proud of that, usually I get distracted and will check.

It was amazing to spend some quality time with my family at brunch today. I did go on my phone then, but only to show them this challenge and showed my grandmother a few wedding venues. Again- no checking social media! I did however stay on my phone for another 30 minutes after that on the ride to this epic arcade game place..but again no social media, just wedding venues. Luckily, my fiancé reminded me of this day being a no phone day. After that I didn’t go on my phone until just about 5pm to find a recipe for tomorrow- Meatless Monday. It is now 10:20pm and I haven’t checked anything else. I’m still not even on my phone. I am using my laptop, strictly for WordPress and then off to bed! I promised myself I would share every day on here and how it went.

Today was such a fun day, I am so happy and feeling good. Usually at this time I am dreading waking up on a Monday morning and getting ready for work. This challenge has me feeling so excited for each day to come, to try something different and do something for myself, that is bettering my life and my health. Looking forward to trying a new meal and having no meat throughout the day, (I never realized how much meat I eat in a week, but everyday, twice a day, yikes!)  Trying a new meal is always super fun too! It’s going to be a beautiful day full of sunshine and warmer weather than what I’ve been used to…it will finally feel like spring! As a preschool teacher, it’ll be nice to keep the kids out longer in the fresh air, we all need it.

Okay time to do some restorative yoga before bed.
Goodnight world, thanks for reading xoxo

–  from the wildflower within


Day 2: Stay away from the phone

Take a break from checking all social media platforms for the whole day. If you’re someone like me and check constantly throughout a typical day try to cut down to once or twice.

At the end of the day reflect, how do you feel? Was it hard to stay away?

Journey to Self Love – Day 1

Before thoughts-

As I sit here while I wait for my tea to brew before I begin day 1 of my self love challenge, I can’t help but feel so grateful. This self love I yearn for has been manifesting into something much bigger than I predicted. Almost 15 women have joined this challenge to help guide them in their own personal journey to self love.

This is amazing.

I’ve been questioning myself all day though, ‘how did I get here? Where did this whole thing come from? Did I really create this? Did people really join this challenge?’ It’s so hard to stop questioning. If you would of told me months ago that I would create something like this I would’ve laughed at you. I spend so much time doubting myself that I fail to see the positive changes I’ve made for myself the past couple months.

Then I found myself thinking, ‘I am here for a reason. I have so many dreams and ideas and I love to create. I want to help other women, to love themselves and feel empowered to do or be whoever they were meant to be.’

Just be your true authentic self and cherish that. Respect yourself. Love yourself. Be happy with what you see and feel when you look at yourself in a mirror.

I hope I can truly discover this for me. I feel in my heart I am almost there. I just now need to trust in take that leap and take what’s been blossoming inside of me and open it up.

I feel I’ve changed over the past few years, especially this past year. Many things played in affect and led me to where I am today. I am not saying there’s something wrong with me, I’ve just changed.

I’m more wild and chaotic than I thought I ever was. I always let what others saw in me, the way I saw myself. I’m discovering that I’ve only been kept to this certain ‘way’.

I don’t need to live to other people’s expectations. I need to live for me. Love me, for me. Do the things I WANT to do, what I DREAM to do.

I am so thankful to have a partner who loves all versions of whatever I am. Who strives for me to just be my true authentic self and do more of the things I love to do.

I’m messy. I spend more time dreaming of different life experiences that I want to have. Yoga is my saving grace in moments of panic and insecurities. I’m moody. I’m most happy when I’m traveling and I’m far from home/routine. (As long as my fiancé is there.) some days I’m super happy and cheerful. Other days I’m quiet and want to be left alone.

I do want to embrace all sides of me..however, I know I need to be more positive and healthier & make better decisions that will help me feel better about myself/body.

Okay, now that all of that is out on the table…time to sip my chamomile tea, listening to my music & write some goals I hope to reach during this challenge.

– from the wildflower within

Day one: Write in your Journal

3-5 Goals you want to reach throughout this journey to Self Love.

What is something you want to do more of? What do you want to work on? What will help you feel better about yourself? 

Write 5 things you love about yourself & place them around your home or mirror you always use. Read them every time you see them.  

Journey to Self Love Challenge

“its not selfish to love yourself, take care of yourself and to make your happiness a priority. its necessary.”

-mandy hale

This quote is speaking to me. And it has been for the past couple months. From the beginning of this year, I have been doing a lot of inner soul searching. Figuring out what steps I need to take to learn and grow, to truly love myself. It hasn’t been easy, and I have been suffering from occasional mini panic attacks and anxiety. Within the past month I’ve been figuring out how to handle the way I’ve been feeling. I got Reiki 1 certified (healing through touch from an energy force- to help restore physical and emotional well-being of myself and others). I’ve started this blog, and I am sharing my thoughts, taking a chance and trusting in myself. I am going with the flow, taking each day as it comes and making the most of it. I am truly ready for my next step in this journey and so I have created a 30 day challenge to self love.

I am also sharing this challenge here for you to follow along. I am not charging anything for this, I just want to help myself and others to love and respect yourself. It will be down below to download but if you would like to take part in the challenge aspect and have a chance to win a handmade dreamcatcher, then please email me at

All details and things you may need to know will be in the download.

Thank you! & I hope you join the challenge!


-from the wildflower within




Why am  I constantly trying to find acceptance from everyone else around me? To be honest, that’s not the kind of acceptance I am yearning for.

Self acceptance is the most important acceptance you can seek. It all begins from within.  If you can’t accept yourself for who you are, it’ll be harder for you to grow and for others to accept you.

Love yourself

Believe in yourself

Respect yourself

I am trying so hard to fix myself, that I am neglecting to accept who I am.  I am realizing right now in this present moment I have so much greatness from within, I can’t worry so much of my outside appearance and let that get in the way of my life.

What I can accept is the fact that I don’t love myself, believe in myself or respect myself the way I believe I should.  I accept that I say harsh things to myself when I look in the mirror. I can accept these negative things.

But also, in this present moment, I can begin to act upon it.

I have created a 30 day self love challenge for myself. I want to take care of me- treat myself better, do things I enjoy doing, eat foods that give me positive energy and make me feel good, be told when to meditate, or take a bath, etc.

  • I have also created this challenge to share with others. I will be posting it here on Sunday morning, March 26th and it will begin on Monday, March 27th. I will be sharing more details about it on the follow up blog. Thanks for reading my thoughts on this topic.


-from the wildflower within

via Daily Prompt: Acceptance


Feeling Vulnerable


As I sit here at my kitchen table thinking about what to write or how to word the thoughts in my mind, the more I feel vulnerable.

To be honest, I am nervous.

I am scared to share what’s going on in my mind to the world… I know that, obviously not the whole world is reading this but, to me it feels like it. I am putting myself out there and sharing this journey and I really have no idea what I am doing. I am taking each day as it comes.

The past couple weeks I have been teaching my preschool students about insects and the different life cycles they go through. One in particular keeps coming to mind, the life cycle of a caterpillar. I feel as though I am a caterpillar right now. My one and only job is to eat, eat, eat. Fill my body up with nutritional food, positive thoughts, more strength and experiences. As soon as I feel good about myself and have enough knowledge under my belt, I can get ready to form my cocoon. Take what I learned and form it into something beautiful. It’s going to be hard but when I have done these steps, I will blossom into a butterfly. I will feel beautiful and graceful about myself. I will fly.

So yeah… there’s what’s going on in my mind.

I am sitting here, heart beating fast, stomach in knots.

“Should I really post this?”

“Does this sound ridiculous?”

“I am doing this. I am sharing this. This is my journey. I am figuring out life. I am finding myself. I am not going to regret this. I will regret it if I don’t post it. Life is too short, give it your all Aleaha, give it your all.”

Thanks for reading, xo.

Happy Sunday.

– from the wildflower within